Pensivity and the Future and Such

I have been thinking about my future. I have one more week until I embark on my last three months of college. I believe my last day will be September 14. Weird. Its just the last four years of my life are going to be over...

I feel like on one hand, I am achieving a serious goal. On the other, I feel like I haven't amounted to anything I wanted to amount to. I have accomplished a lot, that's true, but if ten year old me saw twenty-two year old me, I feel like she'd be disappointed. So, in the next three months, I want to at least make it easier for myself. In this time I am trying to purge my life of things I don't need (which is a lot) through yard sales and ebay and, of course, Etsy. I want to "start over" in a sense.

The majority of my clothes I don't wear. I don't wear barely any jewelry. My shoes vacillate between two pairs. I have piles and piles of books I haven't touched in years. Drawers full of who knows what. Why do I have these things? Exactly. Lets get rid of 'em and start over, shall we?

Maybe this is some form of early life crisis. I'm only twenty-two but I feel fifty two. I just really wanted to be in a different place by now, and by that I mean REALLY good at something, making a niche for myself, and making my family and friends proud. Instead I'm kind of a jack of all trades: wildly mediocre at a lot of things. I work hard for things, yes, and it takes a lot to make me give up. But still, it seems I have yet to find what is truly my "thing". I want so badly for this vintage and fashion game to be it, but I am terrified of failure. I feel like I have attempted so many things in my life: music, painting, novels, paranormal investigation, acting, tarot, etc. They have all failed and it is starting to get to me.

People tell me, “You just gotta keep going!” “You can’t give up!” “Push through!” and I never do give up. Usually things just get pulverized. I know that I am young but I’m about to go out into the “real world” all by myself, and I’m a bit scared.

Does anyone have any advice or relatable stories?

Raffaldini and Skipping Stones

I have lived in Charlotte (this time around) for about four or five years now, and I absolutely hate it. Every morning, no matter how good things are going, the fact that I live in this state gnaws at me.

Yesterday, my opinion was changed. One of my very best friends took me to Raffaldini Vinyards in Elkin, NC. Embarrassing as it is, I actually cried over how devastatingly beautiful it was. Instead of polluted city air, all I could smell was soil, grape leaves, and sweet air.



The drive up was gorgeous.







And...vinyards! Raffaldini Vinyards is near the Yadkin River and the Blue Ridge Mountains.



Isn't that the most beautiful building ever?





This is the veranda. After a wine tasting, we got a bottle of Sangiovese and hung out here.















So...all hatred for this state has disappeared.

After the vinyard, we went to Stone Mountain and I learned how to skip stones! I can now cross that off my bucket list. It was a great day.



I hope everyone has days like this during their summer! Stay tuned for shop updates very soon!

 

Summer

Whew! I finally finished all my finals. Now I just need to present them and I am off for summer vacation! Woot!

I decided to make a Polyvore set for the things I'm really interested in getting into this summer. Mainly I'm into jean shorts and white/cream flowy tops.



Yup. That pretty much sums it up.

I went to Goodwill today after I printed my thesis and found some pretty things.

I wish I had more to say but my life has been finals, finals, and more finals. I hope to update soon with much more!

Update Day, Wherein I Realize I am still 12 Years Old

So today was fun and beautiful! After some much needed photos of my new shop pieces, I got to regress back into childhood for a bit! I didn't think I could still do monkey bars, but apparently I can!

I do apologize for the lack of updates lately. I'm going through finals week at school, and it is crazy! Also, my work schedule changed. I now have weekend off but I work both my days off :( Oh well, I do have more hours so hopefully I wont be devastatingly poor anymore.

Anyways, onward to the shop updates!





I have for you here a beautiful 1980s Jane Singer black evening dress. Delicately handwritten on the tag is the name Celia.



For all your hippie needs, I present a 1960s groovy dashiki!





A 1980s does 1940s beautiful, form-fitting dress from ABSOLUTELY!. Unfortunately one of the buttons popped off while I was doing up my shoes (awesome shoes) but it was just the bottom button. I can mend it.





A very pretty 1980s red dress from S.L. Fashions. Its comfortable and makes me feel cute. The trim is really pretty.





This is an incredibly amazing handmade 1980s button up top. I had way too much fun while wearing it today. Hence...



Absolute determination.



HOLY MOLY ME OH MY!



I'M REALLY DOING IT YOU GUYS!

I MADE IT TO THE END!

So, yeah. I can still do monkey bars.

Anyways, I will be updating the shop today. Stay tuned!